loathe
verb (used with object)
to feel disgust or intense aversion for; abhor.
Used to describe an ongoing action or state that is currently taking place in the immediate present.
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Perhaps he loves No. 1 uncomplicatedly, or perhaps there is loathing mixed in.
From Slate ● Aug. 24, 2014