self-loathing

American  

[self-loh-thing] / ˈsɛlfˈloʊ ðɪŋ /

noun

1. disgust with oneself; the feeling that one is detestable.

   Consumed by my own self-loathing, I thought I deserved nothing.

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adjective

1. feeling or expressing disgust with oneself.

   In my insecure and self-loathing mind, I figured she’d probably given me her number with no intention of ever going out with me.

Etymology

Origin of self-loathing

self- ( def. ) + loathing ( def. )

Example Sentences

If we had a public transportation system that didn’t induce depression, alienation and self-loathing and meaningfully breached the seemingly willful segregation covenants between neighborhoods and zones here, you could take a jazz tour of L.A. that would be heartbreaking in its range.

From Los Angeles Times

I too had done horrible things to quench my self-loathing.

From Los Angeles Times

Mr. Fetterman’s candor about his self-image, self-doubt, even self-loathing, and the awkward angles from which his 6-foot-8-inch frame views the world, can be startling at times.

From The Wall Street Journal

“But if we indulge our own self-loathing, it can go down a road as dark and twisted as this.”

From Los Angeles Times

But he is also so paranoid, deluded and consumed with self-loathing that throughout this caustically witty novel we can’t help but root for him every step of the way.

From The Wall Street Journal