self-loathing

[self-loh-thing]

noun

1. disgust with oneself; the feeling that one is detestable.

   Consumed by my own self-loathing, I thought I deserved nothing.

adjective

1. feeling or expressing disgust with oneself.

   In my insecure and self-loathing mind, I figured she’d probably given me her number with no intention of ever going out with me.

Word History and Origins

Origin of self-loathing¹

self- ( def. ) + loathing ( def. )