botch
verb (used with object)
to spoil by poor work; bungle (often followed byup ).
Used to describe an ongoing action or state that is currently taking place in the immediate present.
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I know what I need to do, but I am botching the execution, which only makes me more depressed and resentful, too.
From Slate ● Feb. 27, 2020