self-loathing

[self-loh-thing]

noun

1. disgust with oneself; the feeling that one is detestable.

   Consumed by my own self-loathing, I thought I deserved nothing.

adjective

1. feeling or expressing disgust with oneself.

   In my insecure and self-loathing mind, I figured she’d probably given me her number with no intention of ever going out with me.

Word History and Origins

Origin of self-loathing¹

self- ( def. ) + loathing ( def. )

Example Sentences

That need to avoid mimicry and feel the moment was particularly crucial for the film’s heartbreaking second act, in which Claire is hit by a car in her front yard and loses a leg, plunging into self-loathing, depression, body dysmorphia and addiction.

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Self-loathing was part of his vanity: He once remarked that few of his self-reproaches were “written entirely without the feeling that at least it is nice that I see my faults.”

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The #MeToo movement is blamed for allegedly making men too scared to date and inducing self-loathing.

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Reinsve zoomed to international acclaim with her Cannes-winning performance in Joachim Trier’s 2021 “The Worst Person in the World,” a dramedy tailor-made to her lanky, likable style of self-loathing.

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The blues “You’re Kind” features a self-loathing protagonist who dumps a lover who’s good to him.

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